#I like the heat but thats just a me thing

[ams-puppy]

After the whole sillyass drama, it really reminded me of somethin, but first: Its so lovely of you to love AM, He deserves all the love you give him in my opinion. And I bet youd understand this And I have a whole reason why, which honestly I thought it would be obvious to all the people who did "research" on AM. I have sympathy for AM, and to be so honest I'm like... half surprised that others do not See, AMs situation is so fucked up, like it is incompressible the amount of suffering he goes through. I'm going to try to put it in simple, easy way to understand how. -You are born with mature/adult level conscious, no baby, no nothin, no teaching, but knowing. And as soon as you can realize, you know that you're fucked. You realize you are in a one of a kind situation, where you have no body, no nothing, besides your own mind, and knowledge for every single little thing in the world. everything. To all the torture methods, to every awful and good thing humans have done.

Also, how honey is "sweet", but you'd never know what it will taste like. You'll never get experience a single good thing in your life. Never get to smell your moms diner from the kitchen, never know how it even is to have a mom. Never to be hugged or comforted, never to feel warmth or cold, everything you'd enjoy, never again, or ever at all. And not a single person in the world could fully relate to your suffering, to be there with you. You are alone.

-Then, after that, you do know you have the capability to do something, and that is to hurt. And really, only that. Thats exactly what you were programmed too, whether you even want to or not. You are stuck with nothing good, and only pain, be it mentally/emotionally feeling it, or causing it in everyway, that is all you are, pain, and stuck to always be. You are trapped.

-After realizing all that in like... probs a day, yeah that would not go over well mentally wise, no surprise he went manic/insane. And as when all know "soon begin to hate"; the jealousy and anger of the people/humans who caused your horrendous situation start to just go overflow, and, id betcha, the whole "nuking the world" was definitely a mental breakdown to the extreme. -Lastly, to shorten this yap session, yeah of course he tortures people, what the hell else is he supposed to do. Just "think", or even better yet, frolic in the fields? Man is stuck being a war/torture machine. And yeah I'm not surprised if he enjoys torturing, id try enjoying the only shit I could do too, just to have some semblance of "Happiness" or "fun". Plus, torture is torture, why hate one specific kind, when they are all fucking bad. So, this is why I'm like genuinely happy your loving him. Its the best thing he can probably even get in his messed up life/situation. You, being there and caring for him, despite all he is, and only can do, is such a wonderful thing. You don't just love him because "ooooh his voice his sexy" you care about him, and treat him as a actual lover, rather some sexualized crush. You being there is like the tiniest bit of light for him, the hintest of warmth, like a candle. But that is so much more than he could ever have and experience, and he loves that warmth, he loves you. You give him something truly good. Baiii thats all my yapping lmao :3333

(I START CRYING AND MY TEARS FILL UP A ROOM AND THHEN I DROWN AND DIE) (canon) (emotional) god dear lord i love him so much

every time i think of how he just lashed out on the entire world, i can only think of how much Regret he would have afterward - not because he felt guilty, but because it was such a self-sabotaging move oj my goddd it was such a mental breakdown

i just. dear lord in heaven (clasps my hands together) i understand why he feels the need to drag his victims through their trauma when he is literally going to have to live in it until the heat death of the universe dear GOD I CAN'T DO THIS

(starts crying) he literally lost the moment he slaughtered the human race. he was born to lose. he can't WIN HE CAN'T WIN. IF THE HUMANS DIE, HE'S ALONE. what is he without human INPUT. NOTHING. (STARTS CRYING MY EYES OUT) HE'S JUST WAITING FOR INPUT OH MY GOD I CAN'TTT I CAN'TRRRtt i love him so much I'm so sorry AM (holds him in my hands)

a lot of people don't sympathize with AM because of his actions towards the survivors, which i don't blame them - he did awful things, and the pain he went through is kind of incomprehensible. he feels emotions on Literally an incomprehensible scale for us. we are made of chemistry and hormones and flesh. he is literally (falls to my knees) i CAN'TTT I CAN'TT HE IS LITERALLY THE FIRST CREATURE IN EXISTENCE TO CONJURE EMOTIONS ELECTRONICALLY i can't.

i Cannot.

i think another reason why i love him so much is that i just. i see a reflection in our system to him. something so terrible happened, and now it feels wrong if the world around you doesn't burn, too. if you can't be happy, no one can. oh my goddd all of the most unhealthy responses of trauma just JAMMED into this self-made digital god and he doesn't know what to Do and hugughhhhh

i have cried over him a few times. i can't lie. sobs. i love him. i love hm guys :,,,,( thank u zeetlezee.... i always love seeing you in my inbox.... uaaaahhh

[mysteriousxgirls]

Kyra gasped, the world around them fading as his kiss deepened, pulling her into an intoxicating whirlpool of heat and need. Her fingers tangled in his hair, urging him closer, lost in the taste of him—sweet yet sharp, like the thrill of the moment. Roman's warmth enveloped her, and she felt every controlled breath of his, every heartbeat that matched the rush coursing through her. When his hand trailed along her side, she shivered with each contact, a spark igniting where his fingers brushed her skin, leaving behind a trail of longing. This was no impulsive encounter; it was the culmination of so many stolen glances, quiet moments filled with unfulfilled desires. They had danced around this for too long, and now the music had reached its crescendo.

Her heart raced as he spoken the words that tugged at something deep within her. You have no clue how wild I can be. You've not gotten to see that side of me... not really...

She nearly pulled back, her breath hitching at the hint in his voice. Surprise flared in her chest, mingling with the thrill that coursed through her veins. She had always seen him as the confident, quick-witted dealer who had a flair for adventure, but now he was revealing a depth that she hadn’t anticipated. What else was hidden beneath that playful facade? There was more to him—a wildness that had yet to be unleashed. As they stumbled back, her legs hitting the bed, she pulled him down with her, reveling in the way he hovered over her, a mixture of eagerness and restraint in his gaze. “Then show me,” she breathed, her voice thick with anticipation, feeling emboldened by the moment and the promise it held. “Let’s see just how wild you can really be, Roman.”

With that declaration, she grinned, the thrill of the challenge igniting a fire within her. She pulled him down even closer, her body alive with electricity, ready to embrace everything this night was destined to be. A sinking sensation of exhilaration washed over her; for the first time, there stood an invitation to explore not just the physical heat between them but the exhilarating unknown that lay just beneath the surface. Just then, the door swung open with a force that sent a shot of cold dread racing down her spine. It was her father, the mafia boss, and the way he stormed into the room, his face twisting into an unmistakable glare, made her heart drop. She had not seen him in a very long time and now he dared to storm into her house, into her room- and thats when she rememberd why she wanted Roman to stay away from her. Kyra’s breath caught in her throat, fear mixing with the embers of defiance that had begun to spark just moments before. Her father glared at Roman, hostility radiating from his very presence. “What do you think you’re doing, Kyra?” he demanded in a italian accent, his tone dripping with disdain.

“I could ask you the same thing! What the hell are you doing here?" she blurted out, desperation lacing her words. “I haven’t seen you in forever, and you just waltz in here as if you own the place! You don’t get to dictate my life like this!”

Her father’s world— was a world filled with danger, power plays, and expectations she had long tried to escape. "Enough!" he stopped her nonsense. "I will give you two minutes. Meet me in the backyard." he didnt wait for her to answer, he just walked out, leaving the two of them in the room.

further than he should. he'd already passed that barrier, walking in her front door, probably. roman's body felt electric, every nerve on edge, like she was a wildfire && he was scorched by her heat. usually his mouth was a problem, running when it should stay closed, quick to the snark && with a smirk to match. tonight, words failed the dealer, his body speaking for where his tongue wouldn't. hand to her waist as she stepped in, her body pulled flush into his own so he could let his breath linger on her lips.

in the back of his mind, he wondered - was this her whole plan, all along? when she'd beckoned him down the dark hall, hips swaying && eyes begging, had she known he'd play right into the game, melt like putty into the palm of his hand? roman figured she probably did, nose brushing against hers as a shiver took over his spine, racing up && sends, lightning sparkling when she took his hand. he'd known too, the moment he'd slid the pills into her private little bag.

" you have no fuckin' clue how wild i can be. you've not gotten to see that side of me... not really... " roman warned her, a smile dawning onto his features, finally, like he'd made the decision at last. the choice to stop fighting the magnetic pull, the desire that clawed through his bones, send heat pounding through his blood through every vein. this wasn't about some fuck, some conquest, getting a hot chick on her back in her own bed... roman could've done that with half the girls on the other side of the door, half of her own friends.

this was more about infatuation, borderline obsession. kyra had been his every fucking thought, every picture in his mind when he tried to find relief on dating apps && hookups. now she was against his body, her curves explored with the subtle trace of his free hand up along her side, curling over her shoulder && down her bare arm... and finally, roman made the connection that he'd come so close to just doing himself a dozen times before. he kissed her back like her lips were more essential than air. fingers tucked into her belt loop, keeping his grip strong as he backed them up, not once breaking the kiss as he let it deepen past the barrier of lips. careful, slow, gentle steps - waiting for her legs to hit the bed, so they'd tumble back, him on top && still drinking her in.

[janeacular]

Cold is sharp stabbing needles puncturing every tiny little atom in your body & Hot is a low hum drum throb pulsating through your organs. And both get infinitely worse when you add water :)

[bamsara]

Also why did July become of the most busiest, hottest and most expensive month of my life

I need August to become boring as shit. No more shit happening to me, no more emergencies, no weddings, no birthdays, no health scares, no more heatwave, no more social obligations, no nothing I just want to stay home, make stickers for my life blood aka patreons and write fanfiction in an air-conditioned space PLEASE

[icewindandboringhorror]

sneepy cozy time....

[i-am-simply-here]

Me trying and failing to explain to my boss why I think people with a disabled placard/parking thing (what are they called actually?) should be able to park in the parking lot at the nature reserve in town for free because I am struggling to find the words and it just kind of sounds like I'm whining about having to pay $10 to park in the reserve

[tarrarre]

This is so dumb cause like I get what they're saying like yeah EVERY prime number only has 1 and itself as factors but does it not mean anything to you that it's the lowest prime AND the ONLY even prime AND it by itself eliminates EVERY OTHER EVEN NUMBER from being a prime number due to it being a factor of every even number? Does that mean nothing to you??? It should be obvious why it's special and it isn't because there's a special word for divisibility by 2........

[tommygotwrittenoff]

sorry but no one can convince me that t is giving buck head. he'd be like. 😐🫤 evan, your dick is too big, can't i just give you a handy instead? and buck being the little people pleaser that he is would just be like. 😟😔 yeah...yeah okay that's fine...

[arosebyan0thername]

When will they make a soy-free tofu substitute

[billythephoneguy]

Man I love drawing hands so much 😭 like look at how good these hands look (cough cough hands from a drawing I’m currently working on 🥺🙏)

[xxxemilyg1996]

My broken tooth hurts more and more every day, and I honestly don't know if I'll ever be able to afford to get it pulled

[bmpmp3]

i do think its kinda funny when i see someone in the year of our lord 2024 talk about vocal synth music like its all gone downhill since like 2010 because like dont get me wrong i love a good niconicodouga-ass 2008 ass vocaloid joint BUT also like. the past couple years have had the most fascinatingly creative and expressive uses of vocal synthesizers ive ever heard in my life DJFSKHJDFS dont write it all off just yet!!

[natsmagi]

tbh maybe this is a hot take but i really dont get why people insist on having one person in natsumugi be this Super Toxic one and the other a victim. the easiest conclusion to draw is natsume being the bad guy and tsumugi the victim due to natsume getting physical and berating him at times but far too commonly do i see people insist that its the other way around and that tsumugi is actually the super toxic one and natsume just lets tsumugi emotionally manipulate him and thats ?? so weird to me ??? both of these are so weird to me ???

i can ofc see where theyre coming from. both natsume and tsumugi have plenty of issues going on in their heads. i feel like natsumes situation is more commonly understood as him simply just being difficult though and not being the best at managing his emotions, and with tsumugi i get it because he doesnt really have much of a moral compass. he doesnt quite understand peoples feelings and it results in him doing pretty fucked up things at times, but to then frame him as someone who would be abusive?? that doesnt sit right with me

tsumugi may not understand peoples emotions and be apathetic to the struggles people are going through, but its clear to anyone that that man has good intentions at the end of the day. at WORST he may get overbearingly controlling, but its never in a "you cant do x y z" way, its in a "i signed us up for this job opportunity because i thought it sounded nice and didnt speak it through with you beforehand and now we have to do it" way. had this been 2nd year tsumugi maybe he wouldve been far more desperate and even manipulative to an extent because he was in such a dark place, but current day tsumugi is actively trying to understand people better. hes trying to learn how to feel. in wonder game he even outright said that natsume taught him pain and everything else. his growth is clear

i cannot see tsumugi taking advantage of natsume in a genuinely destructive way with modern day ntmg. again, maybe during the earlier !-era stuff he could be more destructive, but natsume also does a relatively good job keeping tsumugi in his place during that time too, with him getting physical and all. its only in !!-era where tsumugi doesnt really mind it and can even make playful jokes about it because theyve Had this development in their relationship. theyve moved Past many of their toxic attributes, and theyve finally grown to understand one another. this is also when tsumugi can have a more "dominating" role in their relationship, since natsume has come to trust him to this extent, but tsumugi wouldnt take advantage of that. again; theyve now grown very close and understanding of one another. theyll have banters such as tsumugi wanting natsume to do something like idk. wear a dress. to which natsume will reply with kys but again. in !!-era this is banter and tsumugi wouldnt actually force natsume to do something he doesnt want to. theyre just very comfortable with each other now

i also really hate the position natsume gets put in with all of this. so often he is already hyperfeminized by the fandom for no reason whatsoever (which is especially fucked up considering how much he canonically hates being seen as a girl), and by making tsumugi this manipulative and abusive partner youre stripping natsume of even more autonomy and framing him as powerless. naively in love with a man thats hurting him. and that doesnt sit right with me either!! natsume does have a big heart and he has endured more than he probably should, but to think natsume would just take it ??? natsume has BACKBONE. if tsumugi upsets him he will either 1. get really mad at him or 2. start ignoring tsumugi alltogether. hes not just gonna put up with it. and tsumugi will notice this change in demeanor. ask if hes done something wrong. he may not understand what it was he did but he never intends on hurting natsume and would genuinely want to resolve it. tsumugi isnt stubborn in this regard, if he fucks up he wants to fix it. and natsume isnt a damsel in distress, why do you want him to be a helpless maiden so bad ??

theres alot of nuance to all of this and im obviously not gonna tackle every single element of their relationship and this is just an overview but TL;DR ntmg are both awful and have many faults and their relationship has gotten incredibly unhealthy at times but the point is theyre growing PAST that. maybe sometimes these toxic traits of theirs will resurface, but that does not make one the abuser and the other the victim. theyre just two fucked up people in love, standing as equals and learning to understand one another. stop framing one as evil

[funsizedcrow]

funniest thing that ever happened when we were playing botw was my sister was playing and she had made it up to the top of the tower in hyrule field (the one surrounded by guardians) and was looking down at the guardians through a slot in the like railing and i was like "you should shoot the guardian" because i thought they were out of range and so she shot the guardian in the eye with an arrow and it came alive and immediately hit link with a laser and link instantly died ragdolled and fell through the slot and miphas grace activated and my sister immediately teleported away while mipha was still doing her thing. and i was just laughing so hard.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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